http://onfireforgod.wordpress.com Just another WordPress.com weblog Mon, 04 Aug 2008 03:07:23 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.com/ http://s2.wp.com/i/buttonw-com.png http://onfireforgod.wordpress.com http://onfireforgod.wordpress.com/2008/08/04/6/ http://onfireforgod.wordpress.com/2008/08/04/6/#comments Mon, 04 Aug 2008 03:06:14 +0000 onfireforgod http://onfireforgod.wordpress.com/?p=6 ]]> God has really been working in me lately about having a servant’s heart and knowing when to draw the line.  I have been stressing myself more now than ever, about trying to make everyone happy, because i thought that that is what God wanted from me. Tonight, God redefined what a true servant meant to me.  Being a servant isn’t about making everyone happy.  I thought I was serving God, when really I had been serving people.  I had prided myself in trying to help everyone and always wanting to be there for everybody.  But I realized all I was doing was letting myself pour and pour, without ever refilling.  I became empty and had nothing left to give.  I stressed to the max and couldn’t concentrate in my quit time and wasnt able to solely focuses on God and His wants for my life.  Life isn’t about serving others, its about serving and living for God, and only God.  I was focused on being a people pleaser all my life and trying to make eeryone happy because I thought if they were happy, then i must be happy.  And dont get me wrong, to an extent the joy came but i put that as my focus and not God. Now, I am being refueled and starting to dwell on God for satisfaction, and not people.  It took a close relative to lay it hard and cold on me to realize it, i was shocked at the boldness, but that is what it took for me to realize it.  Now, i have fel the unnecessary stress fall out of my life that I had been placed on myself only by me, and no one else.  So thank you, Dee, for everything.

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